Time spreads like jam and jelly
My toast pops out of the toaster
I take the butter knife
My fist clenched around it like I’m in control
Outside now, determining if the sun will stay
The clouds do not consult me
They begin a game of hide and seek
I, watching them, bite into my toast
I swallow time
I let it sit in my stomach
I am usually successful at keeping it down
But my anxiety peaks in the morning
I am staring over the toilet at chunks of jam, crust, and saliva
That won’t do
I have to eat
And time, it has to pass